Sunday, July 15, 2012

My Teacher


My Teacher

            He is no Mr. Keating when it comes to entrances. He didn’t enter our classroom whistling the introduction to the 1812 Overture. He didn’t hold classes outdoors. He didn’t encourage the class to rip apart several pages of a book. He wasn’t eccentric. Still, he made a difference, for me.
When he first entered the classroom wearing brown and carrying several books on the course he was teaching us, he did give us some chills. Who wouldn’t, if your teacher was one of the big names in the university? The brown color was especially ominous too as I thought of him as one of the old school of teachers who employed strict methods in teaching, those who, if still allowed by the law, would use corporal punishment, if we had been unruly elementary school children. With this idea of him, and with my own unpreparedness for the course (I didn’t even read the definitions beforehand), I certainly had a reason to chill, despite the heat of the afternoon. When he asked my classmate a question defining curriculum as sort of an introduction to the course and my classmate answered him in his own words, I thought he would be mad. I thought he would rant and rave that we didn’t even bother to look up the definitions and were content to give our own idea, our own opinions of the course, even if we were already in the third year, and the previous students in our program were considered a force to be reckoned with, in terms of class standing. But, as it turns out, these thoughts were all figments of my imagination.
For the next five months of our class, we were lucky if we were able to hold a session twice a week because he had so many engagements that required him to miss class, top official as he is. But when we did hold class, I was never bored and sleepy (and it was an achievement, considering that our schedule was during the unholy hour of one o’clock). He assigned us topics to report in class, and he also posed interesting and often challenging questions on these reports, not only to the reporter, but also to us, listeners. These questions were mostly about the new K to 12 curriculum and the old RBEC curriculum, with free updates on the status of the K to 12 that he gathered from his conferences. Probably schooled in the Socratic method of teaching, I would always ascribe the art of questioning to him whose questions were ticklish and fascinatingly so. Yet, even if we sometimes groped in the dark for answers to his questions, he was the epitome of swabe, always cool and calm and patient in leading us to the tuwid na daan. (In fact, for me brown is the new color of cool, thanks to him). His examinations were similarly riddled with questions, all of them practically applicable to life. With Curriculum Development as a subject and all those terms we needed to memorize, all the curriculum models we had to be familiar with, I was almost sure I would flunk the test because I didn’t have sufficient knowledge of those, combined with the pressure of other comprehensive exams in the major subjects. I was almost sure he would ask us to draw a particular curriculum model and explain how it works, the knowledge of which would only serve for that particular semester because we would all forget it in the months that would follow. But he opted for a more practical, albeit more comprehensive exam, in which we had to craft our preferred curriculum ourselves, including the philosophy of the school, the subject matter, and the like. We all had a chance at drafting an entire curriculum, once in our lives. And what I experienced in those one and a half hours of hurriedly drafting a curriculum taught me more than enough to just shut my mouth and look at how the curriculum is first implemented. Tough, huh?
But it wasn’t like this every time, of course. Even though he touted himself as one of the old school of teachers, he really wasn’t. In fact, I would even say he has successfully passed the transition between the old school and the new, taking with him the good practices in both schools of teaching. He is the only teacher I know who let his students participate in making the syllabus. He freely shares the updates in his conferences, teaching us from life. What I would never forget about him though was that he was very supportive of us till the end. Especially at the end, when we were still at school almost two weeks after the official semestral break started, all because we haven’t finished our research proposal yet and we still had requirements and teaching demonstrations. Especially at the end, when we were all nearing the end of our tether. The day before we were supposed to defend our research proposal (we had two subjects with him), we came to him to ask for yet another postponement because we haven’t finished the review of literature yet, or we weren’t sure about our methodology. We were all but ready to give up, but he encouraged us to finish the job, to stay up all night long just to finish it. ‘I know you can do it. Bisan magpaaga kamo.’ Those words, spoken when you’re about to throw the towel, was like a hand snatching that towel away.
 English humanist and scholar Roger Ascham said, ‘There is no such whetstone, to sharpen a good wit and encourage a will to learning, as is praise.’ I know we weren’t deserving of any praise, lazy students that we were, but it does help, having your teacher tell you that you can do it, because he knows you can. And what’s more, he helped us to do the job. He let us borrow books from the library and even in his own personal library, just to help us, just to give us that much-needed push to finish our work. I don’t know of many people who would do this, who would be willing to do this, after all the laziness we showed him. Most of the teachers I know would give up on us too, because we had already given up on ourselves. It takes a great teacher to see that diamond in the rough hidden somewhere inside every student, even if that student has lost his faith in himself. It takes a great teacher to set aside all traces of power and authority as a school administrator to reach out to his students, to be ever approachable to those who need his help. He is a top official of the university, and he was helping us like this. Some of us may say that challenge comes when you want to prove that you can do better than what your teacher expects of you, that challenge comes from a strict and difficult teacher who demands so much of you. For me, and for the seven of us in Research class, challenge came when you want to prove that you are really what your teacher expects so highly of you. Ikaw na la it diri maaawud kun diri ka pa magtinuhay nga sugad hito kabuotan it im maestro.
He isn’t the type of teacher to get interested in your personal affairs just to reach out to you. He isn’t the kind who would encourage you to look beyond the paint, to open your mind to a new idea, because that is not his philosophy. He isn’t even the bohemian teacher who taught to make a difference in the minds of his students, to make them think differently. But as Swiss psychoanalyst Carl Gustav Jung says, “One looks back with appreciation to the brilliant teachers, but with gratitude to those who touched our human feelings. The curriculum is so much necessary raw material, but warmth is the vital element for the growing plant and for the soul of the child.” He taught us more about teaching and life with his swabe manner than loud and always emphatic voices could have done.
He will soon be going out of the academe, and on to the next adventure waiting outside the school gates. He may forget us in a few years, but I do know that for us whose lives he warmed with his encouragement, we will never forget him.

My Vacation Hotchpotch


My Vacation Hotchpotch

               I’m not going to talk about Jessica Sanchez or CJ Corona or Manny Pacquiao, even if they are the big names that filled the headlines all throughout my thirteen-day summer vacation. Even if Jessica really has a great voice for a sixteen-year-old and it’s the second time that a Filipino made it so far as the finals in the American Idol, but still not far enough to win. Even if CJ Corona made history with a decisive 20-3 vote to convict. Even if I still think, and I’m sure many people all over the world think the same way too, that Pacquiao won with beastly power punches against Timothy Bradley’s cowardly hugs. Anyway, Jessica still has a great future ahead if she uses her voice wisely. Anyway, I believe this is not the end of Pacquiao’s career and that a rematch may prove successful. And anyway, I’m not unlimited.
               So I’ll deal with a relatively harmless yet infinitely more significant matter in years to come: culture and education (not that Jessica, Manny and CJ Corona won’t be part of our uniquely Filipino culture in years to come). I’m talking about the Flores de Mayo and the MTBMLE in action.
               Flores de Mayo, or the Flowers of May, is a month-long festival in the Philippines honouring the Virgin Mary. Incidentally, it is in May, the month of flowers, that our town is the most monochromatic green, because the flush of flowers in bloom is only seen briefly before the children in catechism classes take them away and offer them to the Virgin.
               Observing the catechism classes, it seems to me that the children of today are generally no more different than what the children of our day have been. There is still the same ningas cogon attitude, in both the catechists and the children themselves, of coming to church in large numbers at the beginning of the course, and dropping out along the way. There is still the same eagerness to go to the church as early as possible; in some instances, the children themselves are the ones to open the gates of the church. After the catechism, the children are also as excited to go out of the church, to catch up on their play. The reasons for going to catechism class are still the same, namely: to get religious instruction, and as a perk, free snacks. Sometimes, getting free snacks is even more important than getting religious instruction. (In the case of some of the catechists, the souvenirs are more attractive than the job itself.) The only notable differences are that the children of today are naughtier, more inclined to disbelieve, to question everything with that sarcastically incredulous remark, weh?!, and to master the art of poker face while the lectures of the catechism teacher enter one ear and go out of the other ear. The children of our day have now become the catechists themselves, with the added benefit of being able to hold the backs of the children and pushing them gently forward to guide them in offering the flowers to the Virgin. The only thing that is unpredictable is the number of the children attending the catechism classes. Anyway, it is dependent on who the hermana mayor is.
               The Santacruzan is also pretty much the same, albeit, with younger participants. There is still the same shyness overcoming each of the maidens as they take a procession around the town. There is still the same tiny crowd serving as audience to the procession. And there is still the same rowdy crowd watching or participating in the disco the night of the thirty-first. A decade doesn’t change much when it comes to Filipino attitudes, although it does change the size of the average Filipino. The Reynas did seem smaller than usual, although they are still about the same age as the Reynas of a decade ago.
               In education, however, it seems a decade will bring a lot of significant changes. Even a week using the MTBMLE spawned new developments or new problems, depending on whose eyes you view it with. On the parents’ side, although it is certainly easier for them to teach their children on homework with this MTBMLE, the habit of teaching English stock phrases is still hard to break. The kindergartner, coached long ago in answering to questions or commands such as ‘What is your name?’ or ‘Sit down’, now meets difficulty in answering to ‘Ano it imo ngaran’ or ‘Lingkod’. The memorized introduction routine ‘My name is…I was born on…I live in…’ becomes a little more difficult when translated to ‘Ako hi…Gin-anak ako han…Naukoy ako ha…’ mainly because the child has been drilled on the English version, not the Waray one. Even the Filipino version of ‘Ako ay may Lobo’ is still more familiar to the children than the local ‘May ada Ako Lobo’. For now, the Waray language is effective only in classroom management, when the teacher has gotten fed up with the hyperactive energy of the children, and as the usual recourse when the pupils don’t understand the English term. In some cases, however, as I have seen in a Grade I class in our elementary school, the pupils were more familiar with ‘palace’ and ‘princess’ than the local counterparts ‘palasyo’ and ‘prinsesa’ (this may have been due ALSO to TV soaps like Walang Hanggan and Princess and I). The fact still remains that our pupils are still adjusting, and the process may be slower than we think it would be.
               As controversial as the Philippine events were during the thirteen days of my summer vacation, I’m sure the Philippines will be more colourful still in the coming days. 

Going gaga over Lady Gaga


Going gaga over Lady Gaga

               Hold it right there. I’m not a Little Monster trying to defend the Mother Monster. I’m not into criticism either. I just don’t know why I find myself defending her, somehow.
               I’m not really into that ‘Paws up’ thing, if you know what I mean. I don’t devote my playlist to Gaga music and I certainly don’t watch her every show or video, but I do listen to Lady Gaga and I’m going to tell you why she's worth listening to, for me, at least.
               She’s Lady Gaga. Anyone who has the same name as the Princess of Weird is worth the attention. With all this talk about her, she’s certainly worth even a single minute of your music time, even if it’s just to prove that she’s really as offensive as some of your friends tell you. And with five Grammy awards and several bestselling singles worldwide, you just got to know why they’re so gaga over Lady Gaga. And for good reason too. If you don’t know what it is yet, wait till you’ve listened to her.
               She’s a performance artist. There are definitely better singers than Lady Gaga but when it comes to a show, a performance, I believe there is only a handful who can compare. It’s one thing to catch the ears of everybody; it’s another thing to engage their eyes, too. 13 MTV Video Music awards tell you so. And it’s not just with music videos. Watch any of her live performances in the Grammys or in Ellen and you’ll see how she’s got your eyes glued to the screen. She dances her heart out and sings better than most artists sitting still. She gives her all. And she also keeps your feet impatiently tapping the floor in time to a tune, and makes you wonder how she will outdo herself the next time.
               She’s got good lyrics. Minus the so-called ‘controversial’ lines in some of her songs, I would even say she’s got great lyrics. Her fame is not solely confined to her singing; she writes the songs too. And what songs they are. If you go deeper than the fancy beat, you’ll see she has some honesty and guts in her lyrics, some truth that people want to listen to over and over. Who wouldn’t like to hear ‘I’m beautiful in my way/ ‘Cause God makes no mistakes/ I’m on the right track, baby/ I was born this way’?
               She is controversial. These days, her name is synonymous to white-hot shock and controversy. She makes you talk about her, although some of the talks about her are certainly created by the people themselves. She engages your mind, and your morals maybe.
               And speaking of morals, I thought we might segue into her trending concert. All this talk about her Manila gig is definitely over the top for me. Last time I checked, her occupation is as a singer-songwriter, a performance artist, a record producer, a dancer, an activist, and a businesswoman. She’s a celebrity. And celebrities thrive on exactly these kinds of controversies. Renen de Guia, head of Ovation Productions which is the organizer of the concerts, recalls the rumors surrounding Lady Gaga in her first Manila concert two years ago: "The talk back then was that she's a hermaphrodite. Did she deny it? No. She went along with the rumor. Now we all know that it was just rumor. Today she's thought of as evil who belongs to a satanic cult. Again she's not denying. We should know better. The controversy is working." If anything, it has stretched the original one-day gig into a two-day concert, with fans prepared to pay up to Php15, 000 for tickets, and this is a country where the average monthly wage is just about Php10, 000.
Christian leaders cite Lady Gaga’s songs ‘Born This Way’ which they said encouraged homosexuality, and ‘Judas’, which they claimed to be making a ‘mockery’ of their ‘religious beliefs and moral fiber’. Please. If these songs mock the religious beliefs and moral fiber of the Filipino people, what does this say on the faith of the Filipinos? ‘Her attitude seems to promote godlessness, offensive to any religion,’ Sorsogon Bishop Arturo Bastes, a member of the Permanent Council of the Catholic Bishops Conference of the Philippines, told reporters. ‘People have the duty to discern the quality of entertainment. Christians must exercise self-censorship to avoid shows that are harmful to their faith.’ The 20,000 or so fans that flocked the two-night show just showed Lady Gaga’s brand of hyper-stylized visuals doesn’t even make a dent.
I have nothing against the religious groups who protested against this concert. Personally, I don’t very much like Judas either. But if we’re talking of evil here, then why is nobody talking of vampires or werewolves in the same way? I suppose it’s a matter of presentation isn’t it, oh, and commercialism, of course. Maybe we all love our vampires in the form of handsome, loving beings, and not in the stark, confronting light they are presented in by Lady Gaga. To me, Lady Gaga is just delving deeper into the darker side of pop culture. She’s gone deeper than just ‘wanting your disease’ in Bad Romance, she’s hit the point where she realized, ‘Judas is the demon I cling to’. Whatever happened to metaphors anyway? And if they insist so much on the supposedly evil lyrics and lewd conduct that is supposedly going to happen at the concert, what are they doing to suppress the immorality that is actually happening all over the Philippines? That can’t be helped. And this can’t be helped either. It’s a little too late trying to stop Lady Gaga’s concert from taking place in Manila just to stop poisoning the minds of our youth when the videos can be watched freely in the Internet. Sen. Bongbong Marcos tweeted, ‘let’s keep it simple.’ As the concert won’t be “televised,” those who feel disturbed about it shouldn’t watch.
               Hudson Marquez posted on Facebook, ‘I just can’t get over the fact that so many intelligent people don’t get the Gaga.’ Really, if we’re so intelligent as to get the double meaning behind her lyrics, we must pause to think if we are intelligent enough to know whether Lady Gaga’s performances actually exploit and promote her own brand of (im)morality or comment on the times we live in today. To be sure, there are ethical issues about precisely where to put the line between entertainment and pure exploitation. But what exactly is it that’s so objectionable about her videos, and why is it so objectionable even? What ideas does she shove into our minds that we don’t like, and why don’t we like them? If she makes us reconsider our morals, even ours, the young people, then she must be doing something Corona’s trial wasn’t able to do. She must be doing something right.
               Cyndi Lauper wrote on Lady Gaga in the 2010 issue of TIME’s most influential people, ‘An artist's job is to take a snapshot — be it through words or sound, lyrics or song — that explains what it's like to be alive at that time. Lady Gaga's art captures the period we're in right now.’ Born This Way does exactly this, because we’re living in a world where a third sex now exists. What’s wrong with it being a gay anthem? The self-confidence it brought didn’t just affect gays or members of the third sex. It affected everyone who took the time to listen. A friend once told me, “If you’re feeling down, just listen to Lady Gaga. She’s the queen of self-love.” If Lady Gaga convinces one kid that it’s okay to be the way he/she is, then to me, that makes her undeserving of all the hate thrown at her.
Clearly, this is something that challenges the values and morality of Filipinos like never before. This is bigger than Dan Brown’s Da Vinci Code, which also received protests from religious groups urging cinemas not to show it on the big screen because of its allegedly faith-shaking ideas. This is bigger than CJ Corona taking the witness stand at the impeachment trial. This is Lady Gaga, doing a concert in Manila.
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Oh, I thought I might add some LOL moments too.
Charlene Gonzales’ commented (to which I strongly agree), I really like Lady Gaga and I think you can choose the good and leave out the bad…It’s all about having the proper discernment. If you are strong with your core and your belief of who you are as a person, I don’t think if somebody does something bad, magiging ganyan ‘yan if you listen to it everyday.” To which Toni Gonzaga now infamously retorted, “No, but hindi ba, you are what you listen to? Kung ano yung pinakikinggan mo, eventually, subconsciously, nagiging ganun na rin, it affects your mind, especially music.” Then ‏someone tweeted, ’pinapakinggan namin yung bahay kubo. Ibig sabihin gulay kami?’
Love her or hate her, you gotta admit, the world would be a lot less interesting without Lady Gaga.